Well, i’ve been trying to promote recovery and rediscovery about things i love about myself but it’s so fucking hard sometimes. Like holy balls can’t i just get a break for once. My recovery consists of feeling fat and looking fat it just feels so hopeless i don’t know, does anyone else feel like this.
Either way i’m frustrated and wish i could just enjoy food again. I’m just angry with it all. I’ve been working out and eating as good as i can and i still feel like a blimp. today i feel like giving up and curling in a ball for a few days. I’m just trapped in a cycle of self loathing, tomorrow i’ll go out and try and change it. today i’ll just feel unloved and pretty pathetic after this post.
God sorry for this. *Side note it did make me feel a tiny bit better *